Saturday, October 16, 2010

Thought of the Day

Thoughts are words waiting to be spoken. Some people are just too shy to say them aloud for the world to hear, so they write them down for the world to see.


Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Thirteen Things PMS Stands For:

1. Pass My Shotgun

2. Psychotic Mood Shift

3. Perpetual Munching Spree

4. Puffy Mid-Section

5. People Make me Sick

6. Provide Me with Sweets

7. Pardon My Sobbing

8. Pimples May Surface

9. Pass My Sweat pants

10. Poopy Mood Syndrome

11. Plainly; Men Stink

12. Pack My Stuff

13. Potential Murder Suspect

Monday, May 25, 2009

Summer Time = Busy Busy

What can i say? I've been too lazy to blog and I've been playing on facebook.

We had a few rounds of the flu, then allergies kicked in. Everything seems to be calming down now. We had a yard sale and sold most of the stuff that was piling up especially kids clothes and toys.

At a yard sale down the street i bought a loft bed with a desk underneath for Tornado's room. She loves it and so far hasn't gotten in her head to jump off of it. Now i need to get one for Taz as he is upset he doesn't have one.

It's hard to believe that school is almost done, it went by way too fast. As much as i love my kids i am not looking forward to school being out for the summer. It's unreal that they get almost 3 months off, i think that is way too long. Hell by the end of June Tornado complains she is bored and misses all her friends, etc etc.


back to facebook hahahahahahahahaha

Thursday, April 16, 2009

When Does It End?

Tornado went to urgent care last Monday

Taz and i went to the doctor this past Monday

The Ex went to urgent care last night

The Ex is off work for at least a couple days because his ear and throat infection is that bad

I may have to go back for fluid build up on my ears not going away

Taz needs to get back to the ENT for his ears having infections again even with tubes because of this damn bug going around

I have been sick most of the winter and I've had enough

I didn't go to the therapist last week since she was on vacation

This week i had to cancel since i was just too sick

And to top it off the mother in law is here this week until SUNDAY!!

I am about to lose it

I lost it

She isn't leaving Sunday she is staying longer

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

General Crappiness

Sorry for the lack of updates, the kids and I have been sick off and on. With all this sickness I'm behind on cleaning and laundry. Besides all that i just haven't had any motivation to write much less anything else. I'm trying to psych myself up to coloring Easter eggs with the kids this weekend.

Friday, March 13, 2009

My Toothless Wonder (Update)

This is Tornado last week, I forgot to take a picture the week before when she lost just the top one.

This is Tornado this week and i will probably have another picture next as she has one more loose.

I thought it would be a few days before another one fell out but when i went to pick up Tornado from school the tooth was barely hanging. Between the teacher and myself we convinced her to just pull it out and so she did.

Monday, March 09, 2009

Best Email Ever Received

A man was sick and tired of going to work every day while his wife stayed home. He wanted her to see what he went through so he prayed:

Dear Lord:

I go to work every day and put in 8 hours while my wife merely stays at home. I want her to know what I go through. So, please allow her body to switch with mine for a day.


God, in his infinite wisdom, granted the man's wish.

The next morning, sure enough, the man awoke as a woman.

He arose, cooked breakfast for his mate

Awakened the kids

Set out their school clothes

Fed them breakfast

Packed their lunches

Drove them to school

Came home and picked up the dry cleaning and took it to the cleaners

And stopped at the bank to make a deposit

Went grocery shopping

Then drove home to put away the groceries

Paid the bills and balanced the check book

He cleaned the cat's litter box and bathed the dog

Then, it was already 1P.M.

And he hurried to make the beds

Do the laundry, vacuum

Dust and sweep and mop the kitchen floor

Ran to the school to pick up the kids and got into an argument with them on the way home.

Set out milk and cookies and got the kids organized to do their homework.

Then, set up the ironing board and watched TV while he did the ironing.

At 4:30 he began peeling potatoes and washing vegetables for salad, breaded the pork chops and snapped fresh beans for supper.

After supper he cleaned the kitchen and ran the dishwasher,

Folded laundry,

Bathed the kids and put them to bed at 9 P.M .

He was exhausted and, though his daily chores weren't finished, he went to bed where he was expected to make love, which he managed to get through without complaint.

The next morning, he awoke and immediately knelt by the bed and said:

Lord, I don't know what I was thinking. I was so wrong to envy my wife's being able to stay home all day. Please, oh! Oh! Please, let us trade back.


The Lord, in his infinite wisdom, replied:

My son, I f eel you have learned your lesson and I will be happy to change things back to the way they were. You'll just have to wait nine months, though. You got pregnant last night.

Sunday, March 08, 2009

Life in a Nutshell

though more like a nuthouse.

The kids have "spring fever", even though they have been playing outside they are more hyper than usual and just not wanting to listen.

Right now i have a horrible sinus cold going on and i feel like severe crap. I think i will end up at the doctor soon since nothing is relieving the pressure.

They're coming to take me away, ha-haaa!!
They're coming to take me away, ho-ho, hee-hee, ha-haaa
To the funny farm. Where life is beautiful all the time and I'll be happy to see those nice young men in their clean white coats and they're coming to take me away, ha-haaa!!!!!

I am really thankful i have finally found a good psychologist for myself. As intense as the sessions get, it is helping. A simple statement such as "I don't drive because of anxiety" turns into an hour long discussion and discovering the root of the problem which wasn't anxiety at all.

As much as i don't want to deal with some of my issues i know i have to and i am ready for healing, peace and happiness. I've been going through a lot of changes and hopefully more good changes to come.

I recently had an astrology chart done up for me and it is truly amazing. I need to re-read it as I've been feeling sick all week and it's hard to concentrate when you feel so crappy.

If you're into astrology or curious about it, you really need to check out Melody Dawn at Orphic Papers, she always has interesting posts to read and she knows what she is talking about.

For the past five and a half years I've had no help from the pediatricians at all. They kept saying that her behavior and self injury was just a phase, when i argued that they told me i was a bad mother and didn't know how to parent. Yes they had me convinced i was a bad mother.

My psychologist had a colleague who deals with children call me and we set up an appointment which was this past week. Well turns out I'm not a bad mother, Tornado has Aspergers Syndrome which is a form of autism. I knew all along that what she was doing wasn't phases and friends with special needs kids kept telling me she was Aspergers. So now Tornado will get the much needed help that i had been trying to get her all along.

Taz had always been my angel child. He was always easy going and happy until last year. He started with tantrums and aggression which the latter has me very concerned. When he doesn't get his way or doesn't like something he resorts to hitting. I mentioned it to the psychologist and she wants to see him.

I don't think it's a coincidence that their behavior coincides with their immunizations. I had held off on Taz's until last year because of how Tornado regressed each time she received hers. I regret letting either of them have immunizations, they are overloading the kids with these shots.

Well the kids are screaming, the dog is barking and my head feels like it is going to explode, so this is it for now. I will try to blog more often but this week i just might crawl into a hole or jump in front of a truck since i feel like I've been hit by one already.

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

My First Time

It was my first time ever
And I'll never forget
I'd do it again
Without a single regret.

The sky was dark
The moon was high
We were all alone
Just she and I.

Her hair was soft
Her eyes were blue
I knew just what
She wanted to do.

Her skin so soft
Her legs so fine
I ran my fingers
Down her spine.

I didn't know how
But I tried my best
I started by placing
My hands on her breast.

I remember my fear
My fast beating heart
But slowly she spread
Her legs apart.

And when I did it
I felt no shame
All at once
The white stuff came.

At last it's finished
It's all over now
My first time ever
At milking a cow...


Now all you dirty minds repent and say 3 Hail Mary's

*Author Unknown*

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Saturday Funny

The kids had friends over to play this afternoon and the girls decided to play dress up and makeover. They put purple glitter nail polish on him and did his hair, he sat there and soaked up the attention.

Friday, February 27, 2009

Yes It's Friday

I really despise door to door people. This afternoon while on the couch snuggling with Taz, trying to keep warm and watching TV there's a knock. I thought it was the mail carrier with my books i ordered but no such luck.

It's Direct Energy, a gas company I've never heard of. We have Consumers Energy for our gas company. This guy goes on to pitch that they can give us cheaper rates and still get billed through our regular company.

So far I'm not believing much of what this guy is saying. He sounds like he memorized a book and probably did. So i tell him to come back when The Ex is home.

He tries to convince me to sign up and we can cancel if we change our mind. Yeah i don't think so buddy. But being a persistently annoying jerk off that he is coming across as says "Don't you want to save your husband some money?"

By now my postal mood kicks in and i reply "Hell no, i want to spend The Ex's every last fucking penny!"

I close the door and lock it.

The End

Thursday, February 19, 2009

This Week So Far

1. I am now going to a LGBT Therapist to help me to learn to stop hating myself. I've only had one session so far but I'm impressed with her so far. It is extremely hard for me to talk but she managed to get me to not only talk but get to the point of the reason for my being there.

2. I joined a gym and enjoyed going. I'm a little sore but not as bad as i thought i would be.

3. There is little to no tension around here now. He has accepted who i am and has agreed to be friends not only for the sake of the kids but for our own mental health too. This is the best we've gotten along in a few years.

4. I went for a haircut and i love the style. Hopefully next month i can afford to get it colored, i think i might go blonde or close to it.

5. I'm discovering that the friends i thought i would've lost when they read my blog are the most supportive. I don't plan on telling family anytime soon since i know for a fact the news won't go over well at all. They will find out when they find out.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Let me be myself

Fuzzy moment

Today Tornado and her friends wanted to walk to school instead of riding the bus so i said no problem lets go. On the way back it was just Taz and I taking our time walking.

As he is holding my hand he says "Mommy?"

Me: "Yes Taz?"

Taz: "I wuv you"

Me: "I love you too"

We walked the rest of the way home in silence but my heart feeling all warm and fuzzy. I love these moments with the kids.