Life in a Nutshell

though more like a nuthouse.

The kids have "spring fever", even though they have been playing outside they are more hyper than usual and just not wanting to listen.

Right now i have a horrible sinus cold going on and i feel like severe crap. I think i will end up at the doctor soon since nothing is relieving the pressure.

They're coming to take me away, ha-haaa!!
They're coming to take me away, ho-ho, hee-hee, ha-haaa
To the funny farm. Where life is beautiful all the time and I'll be happy to see those nice young men in their clean white coats and they're coming to take me away, ha-haaa!!!!!

I am really thankful i have finally found a good psychologist for myself. As intense as the sessions get, it is helping. A simple statement such as "I don't drive because of anxiety" turns into an hour long discussion and discovering the root of the problem which wasn't anxiety at all.

As much as i don't want to deal with some of my issues i know i have to and i am ready for healing, peace and happiness. I've been going through a lot of changes and hopefully more good changes to come.

I recently had an astrology chart done up for me and it is truly amazing. I need to re-read it as I've been feeling sick all week and it's hard to concentrate when you feel so crappy.

If you're into astrology or curious about it, you really need to check out Melody Dawn at Orphic Papers, she always has interesting posts to read and she knows what she is talking about.

For the past five and a half years I've had no help from the pediatricians at all. They kept saying that her behavior and self injury was just a phase, when i argued that they told me i was a bad mother and didn't know how to parent. Yes they had me convinced i was a bad mother.

My psychologist had a colleague who deals with children call me and we set up an appointment which was this past week. Well turns out I'm not a bad mother, Tornado has Aspergers Syndrome which is a form of autism. I knew all along that what she was doing wasn't phases and friends with special needs kids kept telling me she was Aspergers. So now Tornado will get the much needed help that i had been trying to get her all along.

Taz had always been my angel child. He was always easy going and happy until last year. He started with tantrums and aggression which the latter has me very concerned. When he doesn't get his way or doesn't like something he resorts to hitting. I mentioned it to the psychologist and she wants to see him.

I don't think it's a coincidence that their behavior coincides with their immunizations. I had held off on Taz's until last year because of how Tornado regressed each time she received hers. I regret letting either of them have immunizations, they are overloading the kids with these shots.

Well the kids are screaming, the dog is barking and my head feels like it is going to explode, so this is it for now. I will try to blog more often but this week i just might crawl into a hole or jump in front of a truck since i feel like I've been hit by one already.